Wednesday, December 11, 2013

Artist Trust Benefit Auction 2013, thank you!

It feels good to have the 2013 Seattle Artist Trust select a painting of mine to be included in the 2014 benefit auction.


Monday, November 25, 2013

It's been a while but all this time I have been working on a panel that I have been working on for the last 8 months. I have spent on average 2 hours a day on this piece. Sometimes I think I should just toss it and start another panel but for some reason I just hang on and keep painting on it. It has a sister piece that I have work on for 7 month but I think that work is finished. It's a wall street portrait, it feels like the last( who knows?).

About 3 weeks ago I finally gave up coding to go back to art. Coding really wasn't that hard for me to give it up since it never worked for me. I spent 5 years working really hard trying to find a job coding and then spent the last 2 years trying to stop painting and art so I could learn JavaScript. I must have done a pretty good job at not painting because now...nothing comes to me and there is no flow to the process. I actually think this might be a good thing but man I am lost! I can't seem to concentrate on one thing and I think my brain is trying to put this new perspective together. I loved painting the wall street portraits but I am not feeling that anger and frustration anymore. The constructivist landscapes I have been drawing seem to be working but only in drawings and the geometric abstract paintings seem like a cop out.

What if I painted myself out? Like I don't have anything left to say? It doesn't feel that way. I feel like I have something to say that is extremely important but I don't know what it is or what it looks like with out an art historical reference.

I have been gone back to listening to the Cyberpunk and Industrial music. I have always found inspiration in music and noise/sound. I am trying not to look a art history I based a lot if not all my older work on art historical movements or individual artists. It's not a bad thing but I feel that maybe I just amalgamating styles that I liked instead of really finding out what I was saying.
I thought about working in a Cyberpunk style of art but the new movement is based in Manga and any ideas I have for the style are too literal and predictive.

I guess at this point I need to just keep working finding a path or maybe right now I am really painting like Don DeLeva and I am trying to put a name on what it is I am doing out of habit ( old habits die hard!) Maybe that is what it is I am still comparing myself to everything and everyone else...

Friday, November 1, 2013

There is nothing like honesty, I mean it really is all we have. Honesty with yourself is even more rare. Some people just bleed it out of themselves and it shows in thier work like the singer and song writer for Polvo or the painter Max Ernst. I try to be honest but damn if accolades and money get in the way of making decisions that take a painting the way it should go. A this point i am going back to my roots to find out when i started painting with earthy desires in mind. I mean what if i should be printing instead of painting?

Sunday, October 20, 2013

It has been a long time but at this point I really don't care.
This morning I took a long shower and felt that hot water hit my back and dreamed of a future long away in a distant past.
I don't mean to be vague but now my ships are leaving the harbor.

Vague as it may be I don't know what to do with it.
I can't seem to put it together so I just have to put it out there and hope someone else gets it or makes sense of it.
I hear voices tell me to put it all together this way or that, but really they are voices telling me to make some sort of sense of something so you, the people, will understand it. Well I am out of Ideas and confusing conglomerations of ill fitting parts that don't help you understand. That's not your fault by the way besides the fact that you have all the faculties to make your own sense out to it.
Maybe it's not for my generation to know.
I think if anything I am creating myths for the generations that will be here in the tomorrow hours of not today when technology is far more prevalent then today. Well anyway it is no longer my problem. Oh, I will still worry about you understanding but...

A Photographer is nothing without a model and a model is nothing is nothing without a photographer. I am an artist with a muse. I don't understand her, i just know she demands that I listen to, look and feel what she has to say and do, then record and log it. Your job is to make sense or not of our dance and conversation.
I have spent years trying to explain this dance that even I don't understand, so now you know why i can't explain it to you in a comprehensive 23 work synopsis that will fit in a #tweet, fACEBOOK post or commercial snippet. I would like to but I am a "Cliche" artist, yeah your damn right that's why they call me an artist because I sound like one! LOL

So that leaves us here now. I have decided to just create and leave the interpretation up to you, because you are really a witness of the logging of the event that happens to my witnessing of the event that I see before me.

Understand it or not I have tried to make this all comprehensible but I start to loose my place and leave things out that are important to the message what ever then I try to sell it and people tell me I have to aim the imagrey to a deographic and I agree and then the next thing that happens is the work comes out hollow. Oh well.


the Spell is broken...until next time

Friday, October 18, 2013

What actualy is an existential crysis?

I have been thinking about the birth place of ideas and motivation. I had this idea that maybe they come from not wanting to be alone. If you create something, anything,you have just proven you exist that thing is now in exsitance for others to see and bring into thier conscience.

Sunday, September 22, 2013

Being in reinvention mode is painstakingly tedious. I am not the same person I was 3 months ago, a LOT has changed for the better, thank god.
I have been painting twice as much as I was in the last 5 years. Images don't just come to me anymore, I am having to work at them with sanding out scraping and gessoing.
I will try to keep a visual log of the work so you can witness the changes as the work evolves.

Tuesday, September 10, 2013

Some times i just loose my way. Im not sure i think its when i don't have an image in mind. Sometimes its also like when people say things they have no idea what they are talking about, like "art imitates life." What does that mean? Picasso didn't imitate life and niether did Van Gogh, Rembrandt, the list goes on, Duchamp did kind of except that he stole from real life. Infact Picasso said Good artist borrow and great artists steel.

Anyway i am typing this on a nook so forgive my spelling and stuff. Actually i have no excuse, i should know how to spell by now.

Sunday, September 8, 2013

 Today, I drempt Salvador Dali hugged and kissed me. He gave me his blessings in a cool blueish damply lit room near his home in Figueres.

He said nothing and all I could do is cry as he when to pick from a wall of paintings, one to give me. I remember his hair styled as Velazquez and pearlescent light obscuring his features.

It was real enough to make me question if it really did happen. As I woke I could feel my face in the contortions of a cry.



BTW: Yes, I realize this is a self portrait of Velazquez but this is a representation of how the dream look and felt...

"The muse of mortality
Vanitas paintings became a popular genre in the 17th century, usually juxtaposing lush still lifes with skulls as reminders that death waits on all of us. Plunking a traditional example by an unknown 17th century artist in the middle of Dali's surrealist works may confuse at first because Dali didn't paint vanitas as we think of them.
But the show argues that he created his own versions in numerous works using elongated heads resembling skulls. It's a valid point; mortality and death were constant refrains in his paintings, and, related to them, the passage of time - and those melting clocks.
His is a sensibility in some ways far different from the earlier art, as would be expected. He shares with some of them the sense of heightened drama, of freighting the ordinary with larger qualities. In that context, Dali's distortions can be viewed as inheritors of El Greco's famous attenuations."


Tampa Bay Times
By LENNIE BENNETT
Published February 11, 2007



So the other day I posted some weird azz stuff about Subjective Polymorphism. Well believe it or not it is a name that I researched and created as a way if explaining how it is that I paint. Trust me when I say I didn't pull this name out of thin air, let me explain.

I have always wanted people to realize that they make up there on reality for the most part, we spend most of our life in or heads making scense of our own reality so that we can form some semblance of sanity and meaning to our life. My painting plays off this.
 


Letter from the medium,
Let the medium be itself, then tease it to suggest images that were never meant to be created.

It takes an ability to see with the minds eye and have an open mind enough to let shapes and colors suggest  anything and everything. Then it is just a matter of you choosing what you want to bring out. Leave the integrity of the original vision so that from a visual stand point the viewer doesn't know weather the image was purposeful or accidental. It's as if the medium is talking to you and letting you  know this is the way it reacts to .

"by throwing a sponge full of color at a wall it leaves a stain in which a fine landscape can be seen... as well as heads of men, animals, battles, rocks, seas, clouds and other things...In this you will find marvelous ideas because the mind of the painter is stimulated to new inventions by obscure things. ”
Quote: Salvador Dali

Friday, August 2, 2013

Subjective Polymorphism:
*Subjective: Proceeding from or taking place in a person's mind rather than the external world.

*Polymorphism: Many objects made from one. In the context of object-oriented programming, is the ability to create a variable, a function, or an object that has more than one form.



Subjective Polymorphism is a style of painting were one image is created in a way to suggest many but the image is personal similar to looking at clouds and seeing faces animals....

Tuesday, July 23, 2013

Texture is Qween!

My paintings come to me like found objects. My painting process is similar to walking on an over grown path, seeing a sparkle in the ruff and excavating to it like an archeologist. This has been the most exciting way to paint for me. It make me feel as if I discovered an image and by supporting it with composition, contrast and color I am revealing something that has been hiding in the chaos of texture. Texture is a big tool of mine it is my muse. 

Tuesday, July 16, 2013

As I settle into this new job my work seems to be gaining ground slowly. Leaving the world of selling art supplies seems to have helped me concentrate on what it is I am painting. Everyday day conversations never seem to cover art or painting and at this point I don't miss them. Painting has become urgent, unlike it has been in years. It's strange to be painting from the moment instead of the preconceived idea, its like I have started to learn how to make art from the shear pleasure of making a mark again. Now, the mark is not trying to impress the culmination of marks like it doess if you force them. The real question is are you forcing them to empress or are you making marks for the shear enjoyment of their power and elegance?  This is a self doubt all artist feel deeply. 

Monday, June 24, 2013

Malfuxtion 315

FEK315 walks in threw the door, looks up at the clock and sees a wedge of time, then walks a few more steps to see what happened within that chunk.
"15 minutes? It took me 15 minutes to walk through the door? What the hell did I do in that pie wedge?"
Goth Cindy Turns to him. "See, this is what  am talking about. You have no idea that you were talking to me about Long Range Missiles. You where calling them sniper weapons."
FEK315 looks at the ground "Cindy, I am really not sure I understand what you are saying."
"You loose time FEK."
"How is that?"
"Dah phuck I should know, your the lunatic!" 
FEK315 grabs Cindy's latex suited hips with grappling hands, pulls her close to his face and dives deep into her eyes.  His zombie stare makes her shutter and slightly surrender.
"Goth Cindy I know where you are. I see you in your head with Auto Cannon rounds passing you like light coated street flies, whistling razors cutting your should plates with the hotness of butter knives. Damn it girl think about!"
Goth Cindy regains composure " EAT ME FEK!"


Thursday, June 13, 2013

Its funny how I tell you I don't work from sketches and then the 2 days ago I doddle some image and now I want to work from the sketch...LOL! I'll post the sketch.

my image of Zen:

George Condo Artist.

Monday, June 10, 2013

Pifft! Preliminary Sketches!

It's rare I work from sketches mainly because the sketch is part of the work. I usually start on a panel and work out all my ideas there. "Preliminary Sketches" are the being of the work so to leave them out is like throwing away the bones.
For illustrators "Preliminary Sketches" are were you work out your mistakes. I am not an illustrator. Every mark I make is an important part of the final work. Sometimes a mark is there from the begin of the work and becomes a pivotal part of the painting. The evidence of the mark is exemplified with the constant rebuilding of the original mark. How many times have you made a sketch of an idea only to realize you like the sketch more then the final work? That is because the spontaneity is worked out of the piece.  The first marks are important, they record the raw emotion that caused you to record the idea in the first place. Even if the original marks are scraped out the evidence of your erassing the marks are still there.
see: Robert Rauschenberg's "Erased Dekooning"  1953
drawing | traces of drawing media on paper with label and gilded frame

Saturday, June 8, 2013

Not a writter

See that's the thing I am not a writer and things I wright about sound so personal, and so I here a voice in my head that says "No No NO Don write that!"
It reminds me of a performance piece by Vito Acconci called Face Off from 1973, where he sits with recorder and plays a tape of himself talking about personal things. As the tape plays Vito starts to censor the tape by Shouting "NO!" until the tape player can no longer be heard. ( Great work!)
It is a perfect example of self censorship.
Here is an explanation of the work

Here is a 41 second snippet from the video.

Wednesday, June 5, 2013

I changed the name of my blog today. While Don DeLeva is a good name for an artist it's a bad title for a blog.
The title Suggestively Subjective came to me a few days ago while talking to a curator friend of mind  about Robert Motherwell and Franz Klein. "Don, might I suggest to you that art is subjective? Klein's work is vaguely interesting but Motherwell is just a SHAM!". It was then I realized my whole life people have been telling me and suggesting to me that art is subjective and that to have a bullnosed opinion about art is ludicrous if you are going to be an artist.  

Friday, May 24, 2013

With my new job I am finally working 40 hours a week..it's a good thing!
I started working as a large format digital press and digital cut operator.  This has finally given me the opportunity to concentrate on painting.
 
As far as my art work goes,  I sold all of my inventory last month and gained 2 new collectors who each bought 4 pieces or more. Now my studio is empty, no shows lined up, money coming in and no pressure for sales. Sales pressure is poison to me, needing to sell art to eat really effects my work in a trite illustrative way. Over the last 8 years found out that my audience is limited.  


Lately, I have been looking at the paintings of Franz Klein, I find Klein's monumentality and heaviness attractive. His works like "Le Gros" have a permanence like structures of iron. (Mark Di Suvero comes to mind. ) Looking at them closer the way his grays, blacks and whites interact with the texture of brush stroke give each work a quality of portrait or landscape. Franz Klein is painting motion and letting the action of the stroke paint the painting instead of painting an image that has been planned out like an illustrator. He conjures the painting and is a witness to it not a dictator of it. He lets the shapes and textures that are a result of his kinetic energy paint the painting with out a plan for the result. I believe this is why his work looks so fresh and new because he had no plan for the final image.
This is also what attracts me the most, his method of painting



Tuesday, February 19, 2013

Beacon, acrylic on panel, 5x7 2.2013
Control:Beacon#3 has landed and the weather couldn't be better.
The Russian meteor can be seen in the upper left quadrant of the painting. Well maybe at this point it wasn't Russian I think it was more just a meteor because it hadn't landed yet in Russia. It was just passing by the planet JimJim 12 in the constellation HeyBroThatsMySalami.
side note: Dr Sally Tweezenphoner was eating a salami sandwich when she was tweeting the name of the constellation to a fellow astronomer when her dog ran off with her sandwich.  

Thursday, February 14, 2013

Money equalls validity in art.

Lately I have been reading about the Art Market and how it is changing the definition of Art itself.
Here is a good article on what I am talking about.

http://www.villagevoice.com/2013-02-06/art/uptown-money-kills-downtown-art/full/

It's an interesting read.




Monday, February 11, 2013

This year I decided to create 6 to 12 of the best works I am capable of, I have one work completed already it took about 4 months and 6 different versions to create.

Monarch, Acrylic on panel, 16x20, 1.2013

















Last year I decided to switch from oil to acrylic mainly because I wanted to get back into drawing and printing. That's a logical reason isn't it? After 16 years of oil painting I kept coming up with the same answers to the same problems. I needed new answers to take my work in a new direction so I decided acrylics was the best way to keep painting.  (Hold on the printing and drawing are coming) I also really missed drawing and printing and as I painted in acrylics I started to realize that you can draw on the dry paint, not only, that but I started wiping out areas of paint with my hands like I would wipe an etching plate. You can do that in oil but it makes a hell of a mess. In acrylic all it does is dry on you hand, and as it drys on the work you can polish it down by varying your hand pressure.
These two practices hit me like a revelation! I freaking love acrylic!!! Don't get me started on the ability to layer acrylic paint.